No, I'm not okay. And I won't be for a very long time. But I'm not the type to just sit in my room, mope around and bring burden to others. I have a life to get on with and if I keep pushing that away, I'll end up with nothing. No one can help me this time round, I'm by myself and I'm fine with that. I need to learn how to figure out my own problems, I can't just make them disappear and I can't pretend that they're not there. I just have to learn to deal with it, push myself to be a better and stronger person. If I want a rainbow, I have to put up with the fucking rain - no matter how long it takes. No matter how much shit I have to go through or put up with, I will endure through it all. Even if I feel like letting go.